So it seems my next update isn't about The Monster Ball. Shame.
I'm feeling pretty sad right now, just feel so eugh. I'm sick of randomly getting upset and stuff, I know it's normal I'm sure but I hate it. It's ruining things. I wasn't completely up to seeing my old girls tonight because I was still feeling a bit rough and tired but deep down I was excited to see them as I hardly ever see them so I couldn't wait. However this random bad mood has just made me feeling too crap to even see them now so I've just had to cancel because I don't think I can face going round in this mood. I'm acctually really pissed off at myself. I need to stop letting little things get to me like how I look in clothes etc. I'm convinced that's what's triggered my mood tonight and now it's ruined my night and my chance to see the girls again tonight. What a fail. I'm really annoyed. Arghhh. I hope I become suddenley happier in the next hour or something so I can still go round and see them. I'm such an idiot at times. And no I will not re-read this to check it for spelling mistakes or any shit like that because I just needed to get this crap out somewhere.
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Friday 28 May 2010
Thursday 27 May 2010
fuck yeahhh
I finally got my GaGa ticket in my hand yesterday! I'm so unbelieveably excited it's going to be amazing! 6 days AHHHHHH.
The weather has also been pretty awesome recently. I'm enjoying the sun. I'm going to Blaise's tomorrow again to see my old girls. Even though we're not as close as we used to be and don't see eachother too often it's nice to know that when we do spend time together we can still have a laugh. I do miss how we were in high school though, I guess growing up sucks. I'm staying at Danny's on Saturday night with Billy too which I'm excited for as we always have such a laugh. I haven't seen Billy in a while too so I'm excited for that wooo.
I had my first of the summer exams today. It went okay, not as well as I expected but eugh, there's no point in dwelling on it, hopefully I managed to blag it!
I'm pretty tired. I had such a bad night last night. Couldn't sleep for ages and felt really sad for no reason. Really hate it when that happens. I've been having Uni worries too. Obviously I'm worried I won't get the grades but it's not even that right now. I just keep getting this horrible feeling that I'm not going where I want, like the choice I've made, both Uni and course choice, just aren't right for me. It only really hit me yesterday that where I'm going is quite far compared to other places I could go, and I don't know anyone else going there, this makes me sad. :( Life education-wise currently sucks. Kinda wish I could just blurt every thought in my head out to someone but it doesn't always work that way. I keep getting this feeling that a friend doesn't like me as much as they used to aswell, which is a horrible feeling. I'm sure I'm wrong though, maybe I should just quit being paranoid.
Anywaysss I'm a lazy shit when it comes to updating this so my next post will probably be about THE MONSTER BALL. =D
How epic. :')
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The weather has also been pretty awesome recently. I'm enjoying the sun. I'm going to Blaise's tomorrow again to see my old girls. Even though we're not as close as we used to be and don't see eachother too often it's nice to know that when we do spend time together we can still have a laugh. I do miss how we were in high school though, I guess growing up sucks. I'm staying at Danny's on Saturday night with Billy too which I'm excited for as we always have such a laugh. I haven't seen Billy in a while too so I'm excited for that wooo.
I had my first of the summer exams today. It went okay, not as well as I expected but eugh, there's no point in dwelling on it, hopefully I managed to blag it!
I'm pretty tired. I had such a bad night last night. Couldn't sleep for ages and felt really sad for no reason. Really hate it when that happens. I've been having Uni worries too. Obviously I'm worried I won't get the grades but it's not even that right now. I just keep getting this horrible feeling that I'm not going where I want, like the choice I've made, both Uni and course choice, just aren't right for me. It only really hit me yesterday that where I'm going is quite far compared to other places I could go, and I don't know anyone else going there, this makes me sad. :( Life education-wise currently sucks. Kinda wish I could just blurt every thought in my head out to someone but it doesn't always work that way. I keep getting this feeling that a friend doesn't like me as much as they used to aswell, which is a horrible feeling. I'm sure I'm wrong though, maybe I should just quit being paranoid.
Anywaysss I'm a lazy shit when it comes to updating this so my next post will probably be about THE MONSTER BALL. =D
How epic. :')
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Tuesday 4 May 2010
Saturday 1 May 2010
Building faith on love and words.
I'm the girl who prefers one rose instead of a dozen. I'm the girl who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers. I'm the girl who wouldn't make you wait on her hand and foot, but would do anything to make you happy. I'm the girl who would enjoy having a movie night rather than going to some fancy restaurant. I'm the girl who would rather stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk. I'm the girl who won't make you hold her bags, but would rather hold your hand instead. I'm the girl who will love you more than anyone can possibly dream of. I'm the girl who would give the world to see you smile.
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not to mention that you have such a beautiful smile. ♥
Totally stole this from my friend's tumblr but I thought it was great and I do feel it appeals to me, though the getting drunk part can sometimes be fun and has to be done.. but I really would totally love to be that girl; just for you of course. I'm clearly not good enough anyway, but it's such a shame I've never even had the chance to show you. I could have been a lovely surprise for all you know. I guess there will always be hope.
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not to mention that you have such a beautiful smile. ♥
Totally stole this from my friend's tumblr but I thought it was great and I do feel it appeals to me, though the getting drunk part can sometimes be fun and has to be done.. but I really would totally love to be that girl; just for you of course. I'm clearly not good enough anyway, but it's such a shame I've never even had the chance to show you. I could have been a lovely surprise for all you know. I guess there will always be hope.
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