so happy I could die

One of my fave parts of Thursday night...

Quote GaGa (to the audience): "Get your dicks out. 'Cos I've heard they have some pretty big cock here in Manchester. Hands up! Welcome to The Monster Ball.. NOW DANCE YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!!!"

Wow. Just wow.

I saw GaGa live at the MEN on Thursday night for the first date of The Monster Ball in the UK. Yes, I went to the mother fucking Monster Ball!!!

I'm so happy I went, literally so happy. For so long I'd been pretty upset that I didn't have tickets for the show, and the closer the show got the more it hurt. She is my favourite solo artist after all. But a few days before the show I got a ticket!!! Yes, I went on my own, but it wasn't even that bad! I'm so lucky. I got to see GaGa. Live. At the Monster Ball. I still can't get over it.

She was so amazing. She was on for two hours and did 20 songs. She was late coming on, and I only just made the last train home after walking through Manchester on my own in the rain attempting to find the Piccadilly station, but I don't even care. She was worth it. It was the best show I've ever been to, and I've been to a fair amount of shows! I know I'll never forget that night, as she's just such a babe. All I have done for the past couple of days is watch videos from that show on YouTube. I can't get enough. She also looked so hot, just sayin'...

It's too hard to pick a favourite song from the night, but So Happy I Could Die, Dance In The Dark and LoveGame were probably three of the best. Her stage was a beast!! The main stage was massive, and then she had like a catwalk which lead to another stage in the middle, which actually rose in the air. She's actually spent so much money on this tour, it's unbelieveable. And throughout the show she had things on stage such as dancers, her band, a car, a water fountain, a subway, and even a giant monster. What the fuck didn't she have on stage?!

She also has the best fans in the world. Fact. Little monsters = win.

Oh and another thing that I was pleased about is that she got my letter [/ghey]. Someone who worked at the MEN said they'd get it backstage for me. :D Ahh I'm such a saddo. But I do not even care - GaGa has my fucking letter. WIN.

I guess it shows that if you want something badly enough and you try really hard to get it, you will get it.

Some pictures I managed to get on the night:

Zip your lip like a padlock.

I LOVE KE$HA.



I want to be her friend :(

I love this video so much it makes me smile.

But in sadder news, I have the worst stomach pains ever! Bad times. I must say though I'm so happy it's the weekend so I can just chill out now and catch up on my ICT work. I'm hoping to get some/a GaGa ticket(s) very soon too as I'm running out of time! No, I haven't given up yet and I won't. I also hope Ke$ha tours as she's actually so awesome. Her album came out on Monday and I love it! She's just great. Going back to the sadder news, Facebook has changed AGAIN. It's pretty annoying just because it looks so ugly and they've actually made it harder to use and understand.. I think Twitter is the way forward now. Ramble ramble ramble, I never stop. If I can bring myself to get off my arse out of this warm fleece blanket then I'm off to take another dose of paracetamol before these period pains actually kill me :/

Is it bad that music

keeps me so happy?

That sounds depressing, but I don't even mean it like that.. I have other things such as friends and family to keep me smiling. :)

But music moves me so much. I only started to appreciate it properly since around two years ago, and since then it's completely changed my life. I love concerts and live music. Seeing artists such as Lady GaGa, the Sugababes and Beyoncé live in concert were such amazing nights for me. I've talked about this with a friend before.. that when I think about it, how many days can I actually say I've truly lived my life? As in done something really amazing. I've gotta say it's probably not many. But when I see my favourite artists live I get the feeling that I really am living my life. It's pretty amazing. I'd class those nights as a few of the best nights of my life, and I really want to continue living for nights like that. xx

Does it make me weird that I'd rather spend my money on overpriced concert tickets than spending it on going out and getting drunk every weekend? Maybe.. but who even cares as long as I'm happy.

What made me think about this is that I just watched Lady GaGa's performance at the Grammy's live earlier. It was AMAZING. Just as amazing as her VMA performance. I live for music like hers. Beyoncé then came on a little later to perform and she was also phenomenal.

Wow. I really need to stop writing about music and Lady GaGa on here. I have issues. I need to get a life. Or just a new topic. But it's not my fault GaGa and other artists are always doing amazing things that I have to talk about! I wasn't even planning to post on here today, or even tomorrow. But I just could not resist after seeing GaGa's amazing performance earlier. In fact, here it is:





I think I'm in love with her. <333

She's not broken; she's just a baby.

HELLOOO. I'm in such a weird mood. I even feel sort of drunk, but I'm totally not. I've had a weird day.

It's been pretty stressful I must say. Finally handed my media coursework in, I just hope it's decent =/ I can't afford to do shit in it.

THEN I check my UCAS to see if I've finally got my last offer back. Oh I got it back alright.. THEY EFFING REJECTED ME!! :( I'm so gutted, I don't even understand why. Thanks a lot Birmingham.. It wouldn't be so bad if I hadn't been rejected from Sheffield aswell :( I'm such a loser.

Moving on, I'm in a better mood now. My friend cheered me up earlier, and now I'm chatting on the GaGaDaily forum. Geeky? I DON'T THINK SO. It's pretty awesome and I love some of the people on there. It's actually so great how everyone is getting drunk together on there right now :') I'm so tempted to join them.. Big love for www.gagadaily.com =D

Speaking of which, everyone is getting drunk to drown their sorrows; SINCE GAGA FUCKING CANCELLED ALL THE M&G'S FOR THE UK. WTF IS THAT ABOUT?!?! Don't get me wrong I LOVE LOVE LOVE her, but she's hurt a lot of people there. =[

I physically NEEEEED tickets for her next month. It's not right that I don't already have them. It's unhealthy for me. I'm currently watching 21 items in eBay that are all GaGa ticket related. I'm actually a crazy bitch. It was National Lady GaGa Day yesterday too =')

OKAY I'm totally babbling now so I should wrap this mother up. I'm totally crap at writing blogs. All it is, is me having a conversation with myself. I do love it. =] Reading this post back.. it probably doesn't even have any relevance to anything ever. But I guess these are just the kind of thoughts my strange mind churns out.

On another musical note (do I only care about music?) I really cannot wait for Ke$ha's album to come out on Monday. I'm defnitely buying it. I can't stop listening to the tracks Dinosaur and Take It Off. Dinosaur is actually just so awesome.

I've decided I'm going to post a few awesome pictures, just because I love pictures:

What an absolute dosshole

of a town I live in.
or in fact, of a world we live in.

I just found out this old lady on my street was robbed this morning. I feel so sorry for her. I know it probably sounds average, but it's beginning to pee me of since she's the fourth person on my street to be robbed in around the past two to three months. The thing is, we are pretty sure we know who it is but they never get caught. I'm just scared as I really don't want our house getting robbed as you know, I kinda like my stuff! We were robbed when I was about nine and I must say I wasn't a fan then either.. It just makes me sad that three out of the four of these people that have been robbed in the past few months are old women. It's a cruel world.

It's actually disgusting. *sigh*

On another negative note I still don't have tickets for GaGa. WHAT THE EFF. rgkreglmeiuthnrthkl. :(

I think we need some sort of positive note.. Well I have been very motivated today and done lots of work. It's made me feel better as, even though I still have loads to do, I'm getting it out the way. Winner. I'm currently listening to some Lady GaGa as she's just so great. What an example of a pure winner. I think after doing some revision I'm gonna watch some Gossip Girl, Season 2 me thinks.
Also I watched part of the Haiti telethon live online last night and I plan to watch the rest later or tomorrow. It was great seeing so many celebrities help out and I'm sure that the programme helped so much. Christina nearly made me cry. It's so good to have her back as I used to worship her during the Stripped era. Just look at her stunning performance from last night:



<3

It always seems to be at night..

..when I have the deepest thoughts.

I've just been thinking, how shit is money?

I understand that if you're rich it's probably pretty awesome, but when you think about it, it's not that important.

I've just been reading a lot about the Haiti situation and watching videos about it too, and it's so sad. These people are truly in need of money, and they aren't the only ones. There are children, families and people all over the world who are deprived of basic needs such as food, water and shelter in countries like Africa.

Many people, including myself, enjoy spending £20 on a new dress and blowing their christmas and birthday money on things like phones, iPods and laptops. These sort of actions are natural to us. Sometimes I feel guilty for things like this, but we really should not feel guilty at all. However, this does not mean we should ignore the many issues to do with deprivation around the world. It's nice to address these issues once in a while and try to help. This could mean donating to the cause or even just spreading the word to family and friends to make them aware also.

I've just donated £10 through the British Red Cross to help those in Haiti and I already feel so much better for it. It may not seem like a lot, but knowing that my donation will help provide a family with some water or go towards medical funds for example just puts a smile on my face. It's made me realise that money is not as important as people think and people like those in Haiti right now need my money so much more than I do. I may not be the richest person ever, but it still makes me feel happier knowing that I can help those in need just by donating. I'm praying for them all.

Also everybody should listen to Rihanna's cover of Redemption Song:



She's released it and all profits are going towards the cause to help Haiti. So everyone should definitely buy it, it's available to download on iTunes now. Also on 24th January Lady GaGa is donating all profits made from her concert on that day and any merchandise sold at the concert or online that day to the cause - what a babe. So everyone head to her online store that day to buy stuff! It's great to see celebrities help like this. We may not all be able to give as much as this, but we can all help in the same way :)

I love night time thinking. xxxxxxxxxxx

Even if we are sinking.

This song wins quite a bit. I was only reminded of its existence a few minutes ago. Thank god for shuffle on the good old iPod.



Britney sings it. GaGa wrote it. Ahh that woman is so talented.

WHY WHY WHYYYY do I not have tickets to see her next month. :'( :'( :'(

What is you is me.

I may not have the best clothes, lots of money, the biggest house, the latest phone, or even a pair of jeans that fit me properly.

But I have the best best friends.

One of my best friends just made me smile, truly. Like one of those 'oh now I'm gonna cry' smiles. :) x

Knowing that you are truly loved and appreciated is one of the best things ever.



"We're sisters. You're my family, what is you is me. There's nothing that you could ever say to make me let go. I love you." - Blair Waldorf.

I clearly watch too much Gossip Girl. Wait, you can never watch too much Gossip Girl.

P.S... I'm so lucky that I can put an 's' at the end of the phrase 'best friend'.

well

I haven't updated this in a WHIIILE. What a joke.

Considering I've just had such a fun day (well, yesterday now..) and it's Christmas time I have this sort of crazy-butterfly-crappy feeling in my stomach. I'm not a fan and I want it to go away. I wish it was the good kind of butterfly feeling because it's Christmas, but it's really not. Fail. I have a feeling I know why it's doing it, but I should just stop thinking about such a thing. I wish I was going to uni soon. I'm gonna miss my friends so bad here, especially Billy and Chris, I don't know how I'll live without them. But I just want some sort of new environment. I would appreciate some sort of bonus meaning I could take them with me. Yeah, I'd love that. Please.. :) But yeah, as much as I hate change it might do some good. However I'm not even sure if I'm trying to convince everyone else of that or myself.

*facepalm* *sigh*

To try and get myself off this negative note I may aswell say how good of a day today (yesterday - same thing) was. Me and Billy went to town and did our usual shabazing around whilst also doing some lastminute.com christmas shopping. Organised, we know. He did pick up a very awesome present for Hollie though (and I'm saying nothing else because she may see this!) but yeah, she's gonna love it. Well, she better ahah. We then went back to Billy's and played a bit of 360 and then I got all over the PS3 - as you do. Like Chad Warden says, 'the ps3 gets all the honeys'. If you don't know who Chad Warden is, then you just failed. Youtube that winner ;D

It's 1:11am and we've now just got some epically awesome snow. In Blackpool, we never get snow and if we do it never sticks, so it's awesome to see such a thing happen, especially on Christmas Eve. It's beautiful. In fact, here is what it looks like from my front door :)



Okay, so annoyingly it doesn't even look AS beautiful in that picture as it does in person. But that's just because my dossy street is making it look bad. We haven't had snow like this since I was like 3, so I'm pretty pleased and I can't wait to see how excited my nephew is about it tomorrow :)

I kinda feel better after writing this so I hope I feel much better tomorrow. I wouldn't mind that. I can't wait to play with my nephew in the snow tomorrow, fun times. I love having him around, as I miss the times when I was little getting so excited about things like Christmas and the snow, and he's making me re-live it. <3

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weird mood.

after 8 long crappy months i think it's about time i got over him.

well, imma try.

what a waste of effing time.

he wins but i never will.



suga-win.