She's not broken; she's just a baby.

HELLOOO. I'm in such a weird mood. I even feel sort of drunk, but I'm totally not. I've had a weird day.

It's been pretty stressful I must say. Finally handed my media coursework in, I just hope it's decent =/ I can't afford to do shit in it.

THEN I check my UCAS to see if I've finally got my last offer back. Oh I got it back alright.. THEY EFFING REJECTED ME!! :( I'm so gutted, I don't even understand why. Thanks a lot Birmingham.. It wouldn't be so bad if I hadn't been rejected from Sheffield aswell :( I'm such a loser.

Moving on, I'm in a better mood now. My friend cheered me up earlier, and now I'm chatting on the GaGaDaily forum. Geeky? I DON'T THINK SO. It's pretty awesome and I love some of the people on there. It's actually so great how everyone is getting drunk together on there right now :') I'm so tempted to join them.. Big love for www.gagadaily.com =D

Speaking of which, everyone is getting drunk to drown their sorrows; SINCE GAGA FUCKING CANCELLED ALL THE M&G'S FOR THE UK. WTF IS THAT ABOUT?!?! Don't get me wrong I LOVE LOVE LOVE her, but she's hurt a lot of people there. =[

I physically NEEEEED tickets for her next month. It's not right that I don't already have them. It's unhealthy for me. I'm currently watching 21 items in eBay that are all GaGa ticket related. I'm actually a crazy bitch. It was National Lady GaGa Day yesterday too =')

OKAY I'm totally babbling now so I should wrap this mother up. I'm totally crap at writing blogs. All it is, is me having a conversation with myself. I do love it. =] Reading this post back.. it probably doesn't even have any relevance to anything ever. But I guess these are just the kind of thoughts my strange mind churns out.

On another musical note (do I only care about music?) I really cannot wait for Ke$ha's album to come out on Monday. I'm defnitely buying it. I can't stop listening to the tracks Dinosaur and Take It Off. Dinosaur is actually just so awesome.

I've decided I'm going to post a few awesome pictures, just because I love pictures:

What an absolute dosshole

of a town I live in.
or in fact, of a world we live in.

I just found out this old lady on my street was robbed this morning. I feel so sorry for her. I know it probably sounds average, but it's beginning to pee me of since she's the fourth person on my street to be robbed in around the past two to three months. The thing is, we are pretty sure we know who it is but they never get caught. I'm just scared as I really don't want our house getting robbed as you know, I kinda like my stuff! We were robbed when I was about nine and I must say I wasn't a fan then either.. It just makes me sad that three out of the four of these people that have been robbed in the past few months are old women. It's a cruel world.

It's actually disgusting. *sigh*

On another negative note I still don't have tickets for GaGa. WHAT THE EFF. rgkreglmeiuthnrthkl. :(

I think we need some sort of positive note.. Well I have been very motivated today and done lots of work. It's made me feel better as, even though I still have loads to do, I'm getting it out the way. Winner. I'm currently listening to some Lady GaGa as she's just so great. What an example of a pure winner. I think after doing some revision I'm gonna watch some Gossip Girl, Season 2 me thinks.
Also I watched part of the Haiti telethon live online last night and I plan to watch the rest later or tomorrow. It was great seeing so many celebrities help out and I'm sure that the programme helped so much. Christina nearly made me cry. It's so good to have her back as I used to worship her during the Stripped era. Just look at her stunning performance from last night:



<3

It always seems to be at night..

..when I have the deepest thoughts.

I've just been thinking, how shit is money?

I understand that if you're rich it's probably pretty awesome, but when you think about it, it's not that important.

I've just been reading a lot about the Haiti situation and watching videos about it too, and it's so sad. These people are truly in need of money, and they aren't the only ones. There are children, families and people all over the world who are deprived of basic needs such as food, water and shelter in countries like Africa.

Many people, including myself, enjoy spending £20 on a new dress and blowing their christmas and birthday money on things like phones, iPods and laptops. These sort of actions are natural to us. Sometimes I feel guilty for things like this, but we really should not feel guilty at all. However, this does not mean we should ignore the many issues to do with deprivation around the world. It's nice to address these issues once in a while and try to help. This could mean donating to the cause or even just spreading the word to family and friends to make them aware also.

I've just donated £10 through the British Red Cross to help those in Haiti and I already feel so much better for it. It may not seem like a lot, but knowing that my donation will help provide a family with some water or go towards medical funds for example just puts a smile on my face. It's made me realise that money is not as important as people think and people like those in Haiti right now need my money so much more than I do. I may not be the richest person ever, but it still makes me feel happier knowing that I can help those in need just by donating. I'm praying for them all.

Also everybody should listen to Rihanna's cover of Redemption Song:



She's released it and all profits are going towards the cause to help Haiti. So everyone should definitely buy it, it's available to download on iTunes now. Also on 24th January Lady GaGa is donating all profits made from her concert on that day and any merchandise sold at the concert or online that day to the cause - what a babe. So everyone head to her online store that day to buy stuff! It's great to see celebrities help like this. We may not all be able to give as much as this, but we can all help in the same way :)

I love night time thinking. xxxxxxxxxxx

Even if we are sinking.

This song wins quite a bit. I was only reminded of its existence a few minutes ago. Thank god for shuffle on the good old iPod.



Britney sings it. GaGa wrote it. Ahh that woman is so talented.

WHY WHY WHYYYY do I not have tickets to see her next month. :'( :'( :'(

What is you is me.

I may not have the best clothes, lots of money, the biggest house, the latest phone, or even a pair of jeans that fit me properly.

But I have the best best friends.

One of my best friends just made me smile, truly. Like one of those 'oh now I'm gonna cry' smiles. :) x

Knowing that you are truly loved and appreciated is one of the best things ever.



"We're sisters. You're my family, what is you is me. There's nothing that you could ever say to make me let go. I love you." - Blair Waldorf.

I clearly watch too much Gossip Girl. Wait, you can never watch too much Gossip Girl.

P.S... I'm so lucky that I can put an 's' at the end of the phrase 'best friend'.